I Want My Career Back

For a while now it's been hard to be at the computer for more than 5 minutes. Sam finds me sitting here and wants to climb up and plunk on the keyboard so I have to delay answering emails or blogging. I find myself gathering toys or anything to distract her and then sneak away to only be able to turn on the computer. Then I give in and surf all the kids sites and let her interact and dance to the music. After seeing that it's worth it. lol

Anyway so I thought I'd post something quickly as now she doesn't seem as eager (for a few moments). I'm all better from being sick this month, I just take it easy in the day. I did a bit too much yesterday (I can feel my chest tightening up and I get short of wind). It's raining here and cold so a good day to nestle inside and relax.

I'm focusing more on my career again these days. Now that Sam is older I can concentrate on getting back into my makeup biz. I'm already booked for 2 weddings which is really exciting. I feel like the old Heidi I used to know. I much prefer to work on set though and what I find really frustrating is I can't accept anymore gigs in film yet. That's until I can find someone to look after Sam for long periods of time. I work usually 3 - 6 weeks, come home on weekends (if out of town) and work 16 hour days. This just doesn't jive with our lifestyle yet and probably won't for a little while longer. This year I've already had to turn down 3 offers - that's a lot of cash. I hang up the phone as I bang my head against the wall.