This crazy life these days have finally caught up to me. I'm emotionally exhausted and it's taking a toll on my energy levels, not to mention my patience, my stomach and sleep patterns. From the time Craig got sick and up until now, I'm ready for Calgon or something stupid like that - or more! I'm really looking forward to getting away tomorrow night to our veterinary clinic's Christmas party. I really need to just take this break for a few hours; have some adult interaction and some laughs. All week Wayne has been in Vancouver looking for our 'perfect' home...or not so perfect, but he hasn't had much luck except for a couple that are ok AND one amazing one. He's due back to Ottawa on Sunday and time is running out. It's been killing me being here and waiting all day for his call to find out what's going on. Then a couple of days ago my car broke down and now I'm house bound with a toddler until he gets back. Christmas is coming and we don't know how much we can afford and now we might have to put more money into my car or just get rid of it since we're moving in 2 months anyway. Now without a car I cannot get any Christmas stuff done even if I HAD money, so I'm even more stressed. My dearest bestest friend Tracy rescued me today though (thanks sista cat!;)) and I was able to pack Sam in her car and hitch a ride with her to Superstore. I've been running out of groceries slowly and needed a few things, plus last minute stuff for my Christmas party. With that done, I finished everything just in time... and in the middle of our first winter storm too! Tracy's also agreed to babysit for me tomorrow night since Wayne's mother is sick with a chest infection. She's been a life saver for me lately that's for sure...taking time out of HER busy schedule and adding her own newborn baby to it...I am so grateful!
I haven't slept a full night in a few weeks. My doctor suggested it could indicate that I need to be back on antidepressants just for these next couple of months, as it's going to be very hectic and stressful. I feel bad complaining after everything Craig's been through, but it is what it is and I have this option to take care of it. I've got a prescription but have been hesitating to have it dispensed. I've been doing so well managing my anxiety but there comes a point doesn't it?